Christmas blues

So yeah xmas is around the corner My lil guy will be 5 months :[ Time flies too fast.Besides putting up w. A toddler telling me shut-up and moythy kids cranky baby lol I have been trying to find a job. I NEEd to get out of the house and I NEED to make money so I can start to pay my loans back. This time of year is always hard.. I really miss my dad. eight years already I cant believe it. Christmas is always the hardest not to mention thats when my lil angel baby was suppose to be born. She would have been 4 this year. THats crazyyness right there. But I was sitting in the car this morning and this song came on. Mariah Carey Miss you the most [at Christmas time] Def made me tear up!

Miss You Most (At Christmas Time)"

The fire is burning
The room's all aglow
Outside the December wind blows
Away in the distance
The carolers sing in the snow
Everybody's laughing
The world is celebrating
And everyone's so happy
Except for me tonight
Because...

[Chorus:]
I miss you
Most at Christmas time
And I can't get you
Get you off my mind
Every other season comes along
And I'm all right
But then I miss you
Most at Christmas time

I gaze out the window
This cold winters' night
At all of the twinkling lights
Alone in the darkness
Remembering when you were mine
Everybody's smiling
The whole world is rejoicing
And everyone's embracing
Except for you and I
Baby...

[Chorus]

In the springtime
Those memories start to fade
With the April rain
Through the summer days
Till Autumn's leaves are gone
I get by without you
Till the snow begins to fall
And then...
[Chorus]


Reminds me of my dad his favorite holiday was xmas.
i have been down lately wish I didnt feel this way. I tend to hold it all in anyway and just explode all at once. guess you will have that. Thank god for FRIENDS tho. I am soo glad I am making new friends. I really am glad Veronikka and I talk.... Love you VERONIKKA!!! You really have helped me stay sane!! Its funny bc some of my friends around her don't even talk to me at all. This girl is in a different country and manages to make time to talk to me! :] Means a lot. Wish there were more people like her in the world! Ohh and I love her Aussie accent!!

Well untill next time

Live Love Laugh


Kat


PS: beware next post will be me venting about BF'ing

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