The Chronicles of
Kat
The World Through
A Mothers eyes
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Just a question that has been pondering me for some time recently. My city has what seems like shooting after shooting over the course of some time. Crimes are ridiculous and I don't feel safe. The main point here is the families of these convicted people and how they feel when they receive the news or even see their child and or family members mugshot  on T.V.? Perhaps even the wives or significant others of the convicted. How do they feel? I think I would be in shock. It would be so horrible to think you knew your child, spouse, and or other family members and then come to find out they shot someone and possibly even killed them. Do they still love them the same? Will things be different? They say family comes first but in an event of murder and they are proven guilty what do you do? Stand behind this monster 100% or get the courage to move on but still love them? I myself have never experienced this. I would imagine it would be a tough thing to deal with. I can only imagin...

So walking through the store I will tend to always look at everyone. I do not what so ever do this to judge them but rather just to glance and give my simple smile as a hello or how are you. Every person I see always looks so stressed out and ready to kill the world. I always try to make eye contact with those types and smile and ask how they are doing or tell them good morning.  My children on the other hand are still learning that everyone is different. I can remember all the way back when my daughter now 5 almost 6 years old was around 2 1/2 years old and we took a trip to Walmart. It had been a long morning and I had some things to pick up at the store. Let me remind you my daughter is very out spoken for her age. Well we were in the check out line and the lady next to us was a bit over-weight and had a pear shaped body with the wider hips, so being my daughter she instantly yelled while giggling "Mommy that lady has a big butt". My face I know had to of turned as red a...

Do you ever just want to give up and throw everything away? Feel like everything you have done was for nothing..? Lately this is how I feel.. I just cant take it. Im tired of pretending to be happy... Im tired of being treated like shit. Like I can only take soo much before I explode.. my babies should not have to go through this, but I am torn on what to do or how to handle this. I do not want to make the wrong decision. Fuck everything. Why  did I even come back..

So As of right now at this very moment I  have so many emotions running through me that I don't even know where to begin. A lot has happened since I last blogged. Currently, I'm trying to cope with my anxiety and possibly depression. I have had anxiety issues for years ever since I can remember. I would not be so hard if I wasn't losing my mind every damn Day. I have 3 step children (Might as well be) that I have been around for 7 years now. I do everything for these kids and more since their mother isn't in the picture, I can not believe that 3 kids can have so much hate in them and Dis-respectfulness towards an adult. I get called a bitch, fat ass, ugly, you name it I'm called it. Like I already deal with my own issues and insecurities let alone shit from them.. It is over-whelming and sometimes I feel If I were gone they would be happier. But I already left once I'm not going anywhere again. I hate for my kids to pick up on ...

Okay So I was just sitting on my lunch break and picke dup the first thing I seen to read and it was a paper for senior citizens. I was reading the classifieds and here is what the first one said:   FOR SALE: 3 Cows never bred. Also 1 Gay bull for sell. please call 000-000-000 --->[number not real ] lol didnt wanna put the actual number ;] So I didn't know that animals are gay lol? Like they can choose their own sexuality?? I found this funny and weird. Maybe that day the bull just didn't want to reproduce haha but thought I would share that with you it made me laugh!!!

Someone I need to let go hmmmm...... There are a few people I NEED to let go. The so called friends that only talk to me when they need or want something, the friends who drifted away and are to good to talk to me those kinda people are the ones I need to let go.   Day 1: Something you hate about yourself Day 2: Something you love about yourself. Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for. Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for. Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life. Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do. Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for. Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you badly. Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. Day 10: Someone you need to let go. Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on. Day 12: Something you never get compliments on. Day 13: Write a letter to your son or daughter. Day 14: Someone who isn't in your life, but you wish was. ...